Years ago I heard a statement by a psychologist that rang true for me.He said what a man wants is an emotionally responsive mate/partner/wife.I thought yes,thats right.Emotionally responsive.
I have had 4 interviews and 3 dates since being here.All were nice and interesting persons,we had a good time talking.2 nights ago the lady was attractive and spoke good english,so that made it interesting,but no emmotional response.Last night the girl was perhaps less attractive and spoke no english.So lazy me had to shift to espanol mode,which I can do if I have to,but will do only if I have to,I go for what works best.
Not only was it my longest effort at espanol but it went very well.She was able to understand me and said she enjoyed my stories.It was more difficult understanding her,but with effort and the electronic translater I could.
But - -emotional response!So nice to have after my exile in the wilderness.Sweet responsive kisses.My ex stopped really kissing me over a year ago.Even if we had sex the kisses were nothing.I asked did you forget how to kiss?No,she just lost all desire or motivation to do it with me.
After my sexual Siberian exile of the last year I will admit without expounding that I did paretake of proffesional services.One girl was absolutely gorgeous and willing to please in any way I wanted.But it was not that good,something was missing.Maybe there was some mental reservation that this is not something I should be doing,but also,what was missing was the emotional response.An emotional responsive kiss is better.Or even sex with someone I loved that did not love me.
But where to go from here.Yes,this girl does give me that much missing emotional response,and she is cute and nice and seems very interested in me.But there is the danger of going for the first one you get this response from.I think I will continue to date her while also meeting others.It would be a mistake I think to focus on her,let the relationship develop to the sexual state and then keep looking around.Thats were the jeaulosy can really kick in,as one of my friends recently discovered.But its hard to resist,after much lack of such interest.I want to try and do the right thing.I don't want to turn in to a Colombiano,which could be easy in a way.But I don't lie at all,so it wouldn't work for me.
Also,in our jumbled comunication,part sign language,she was explaining to me why she wanted no more Colombianos.One little gesture was a punch to the jaw.
Its getting interesting finally.Also today,finally,we meet with the owners of the apartment I want to rent.Man is it slow trying to do any business here.They got along way to go to join the first world.Everything is 10 times as hard as it should be.
Also,this place rocks even on Tuesday night.It was going strong on Avenida Sexta when I left after Midnight.
Pete
